I wanted to Prove I could do things Right

Hello, readers, and welcome to 2017. For those who don’t know me or my blog I am Genius and Insanity why? Because, I am that Line. In March of 2016 one of my friends said, “Girl, I can’t tell if you are a genius or just insane.” To which I, with 100 percent sarcasm, replied, “There’s a fine line between the two, I am that line.”

This blog is about facts, research, and resources on various mental health conditions. I will post poems, pieces of writings, pictures, and other neat little artworks from the various authors (including myself), related to the topics being discussed.  There will be sadness, there will be “lectures,” but there will also be humor. Knowledge is fundamental and this blog provides both the fun and mental. Anyway, check out the rest of my post and you will know what I mean.

The start of the year has allowed me to reshape my blog and one way I am going to do it (after seeing the success of Art of Depiction and Into the Mind Palace of Sherlock Holmes) I have decided to take a character from a show or movie and analyze their psychology and any psychological illness that connect back to my topics. Good idea, huh?



Okay Dory, you can stop now. Most if not all characters will be around the SuperWhoLock trinity, Disney, Marvel, or random shows that I watch or characters that I study if I want to make a specific post.

To start off the year I am going to do a post on my favorite Disney princess…. Drum roll please! (pause of readers to do drum roll)! MULAN!

Mulan: my spirit Disney Princess

Okay for those have watched Mulan great! For those who have not, drop everything and go watch it now! I promise you, you will not regret it! If not here is a quick summary of the movie:  During the Han Dynasty in ancient China, the legendary Great Wall fails to keep out the notorious Hun army and their ruthless leader, Shan Yu. The alarm is raised, and the Emperor entrusts General Li with mobilizing an army to protect China.

Fa Mulan, the daughter of a farmer Fa Zhou, nervously prepares for her meeting with the village matchmaker. Though clever and kindhearted, Mulan is a tomboyish klutz who has little faith in her ability to become a poised and dignified bride. Mulan is deemed a “disgrace,” and is told she will never bring honor to her family. Deeply ashamed, Mulan returns home and laments that she is not the daughter her parents deserve (enter the song Reflection).

Pause! Go watch the movie!

The Emperor’s councilman, Chi Fu arrives at Mulan’s village to draft one man from each family for the imperial army. Knowing her father will die if put in combat again, Mulan makes a desperate decision. After her parents are asleep, she cuts her hair short, dons her father’s armor, and takes his draft information before riding out to the camp in his place. Fa Zhou and Fa Li awaken and discover with horror that their daughter has left to join the army. They cannot go after her, for impersonating a soldier is a capital offense, and Mulan would be executed if her identity was revealed. The statues of the ancestors come to life to deliberate over what to do about Mulan. Mushu the dragon, a former guardian who was demoted to gong-ringer, is sent to awaken the Great Stone Dragon, the most powerful guardian, to bring Mulan home safely. Mushu accidentally reduces it to rubble. Mushu plans to make Mulan excel in the army, thus earning back his place among the ancestors as a guardian.

Mulan arrives in the camp and accidently starts a fight trying to be manly, but her commander, Shang is unimpressed with the sloppy new recruits, especially awkward Mulan, who presents herself as Fa Zhou’s little-seen son Ping. Mushu supports Mulan as she struggles through training, which is especially harrowing because her fellow soldiers are still angry with her for the camp-wide fight on their first day.

When the training (the best song in all of Disney: I’ll Make a Man Out of You) is over they are headed to the Imperial City, but when they reach the mountain pass, they find General Li and his entire platoon slaughtered. As Mulan, Shang, and the troops progress through the snowy mountains, Mushu accidentally sets off a cannon and gives away their position. The Huns immediately attack, and it is evident that they greatly outnumber the soldiers. As the Hun army charges toward them, Shang instructs to aim their last cannon at Shan Yu. Quick-thinking Mulan swipes the cannon and fires it at the mountainside, causing a huge avalanche that buries the Huns. The soldiers run for safety, with Shang and Mulan narrowly avoiding falling to their deaths over a cliff. Shang thanks Mulan for saving their lives, and gets her medical attention for an injury she sustained from Shan Yu’s sword. Mulan can no longer hide her gender, and she is ousted to the rest of the troops. Chi Fu pressures Shang to execute Mulan immediately, but Shang, while angry at Mulan for her deception, refuses to kill her and leaves her in the mountains with her horse and supplies.

Mulan miserably tells Mushu that entering the army was a mistake, and that she was fated to dishonor her family. They are all about to give up hope when they discover that Shan Yu and many of the Huns “popped out of the snow like daisies” Mulan, Mushu, Khan and Cri-Kee rush to the Imperial City to warn of the coming attack.

Mulan states: “Maybe what I really wanted was to prove that I could do things right.” (Cries and sobs cause this literally everyone I know).

In the city, Shang and his troops are being hailed as heroes for defeating the Huns. Mulan, presenting herself as a woman again, confronts Shang during their victory parade and tells him what she saw in the mountains. Shang dismisses her as a liar, and members of the crowd are deaf to Mulan’s words. On the steps of the palace, the Emperor is kidnapped by the Huns, who beat Mulan to the city. Shan Yu threatens to kill the Emperor if he refuses to bow to him and accept him as the new leader of China. The Emperor stoically refuses, but Shang leaps to his aid just in time. Mulan then attracts Shan Yu’s attention by proving herself to be the soldier who started the avalanche, and Shan Yu turns his wrath from Shang to her. Mulan lures Shan Yu to the roof of the palace, before Mushu arms himself with an enormous firework rocket which he launches at Shan Yu. The Hun leader is blasted to smithereens in a colorful display, and Mulan drops to safety on the palace steps.

“The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rarest and beautiful of them all” (so…I’m beautiful? You’re beautiful? We’re all beautiful/handsome/cute??)

As the chaos subsides, Chi Fu verbally attacks Mulan for her actions. Shang angrily defends her until the Emperor appears. He explains to Mulan that, despite her fraud, she has saved the entire nation of China. In the ultimate display of respect, the Emperor bows to Mulan, as do the countless people in the attending crowd. He then offers Mulan a job as his council, but Mulan respectfully declines and expresses her wish to return home. The Emperor gives her his medallion and Shang lowers the expectations of men by like a lot… She saved CHINA and all he could say was “You fight go?” Oh the idea man! Yu’s sword as gifts to honor the Fa family. This is also the part where Shang Mulan returns to her family and they are happy to see her alive.

Okay, so what?

Chill out, I’m getting to the point, keep your horses or: dishonor on you, dishonor on your cow (horse?)!


So here it is, and food for thought as many of you venture to new year’s resolutions. Mulan has a few psychological issues that I would love to talk to about. First, she has dissociative identity disorder (this was also known as multiple personality disorder as we can see when Mulan references herself as Ping and Mulan), schizophrenia (she believes that a small pocket size dragon is helping her, and she talks and answers her horse as if she can understand him), and anxiety that causes atelophobia.

For my first post, I will be talking about her anxiety that causes atelophobia. Okay, so what is atelophobia:  is classified as an anxiety disorder as are most phobias.  Atelophobia is the fear of not doing something right or the fear of not being good enough. Quite simply put it’s a fear of imperfection. Persons suffering from this psychological disorder may be often depressed when their perceived expectations do not match reality. This fear of imperfection can inhibit them from doing anything productive at all because they are afraid that may not do it right and disappoint those around them and themselves.  People who are atelophobic often have an inability to relax as their mind is constantly being bombarded with thoughts of possible failure. They often suffer from insomnia which leaves them unable to sleep at night. This disorder of the mind is also often found in persons who are suffering from anorexia or bulimia (more on these two disorders later).

Okay so does my favorite Disney Princess have atelophobia? Well… Let’s see! She believes that she is not good enough for her family or a husband and she questions her worth. (The song Reflection). She runs and joins the army to one save her father, but to also find her place in the world. Additionally, even while in the army she is thinks she is not good enough as well. She even strives to be the idea solider, which luckily for this fear of imperfection, Mulan can climb and get the arrow. She is always tense and unable to relax. Mulan believes that she needs to fit into the perfect role or her family will be dishonored. She places all the pressure of honor and dishonor on herself. Finally, Mulan is the stressed like 98 percent of the movie. She starts the movie stressed and does not stop being stressed until literally the last two minutes of the movie.

So what does this mean? Well… maybe of you are starting new year resolutions, and I am here to tell you, that you are perfect the way you are. You’re reflection only shows the outside (a later post), it’s what is inside that count. Be the Mulan in your story (no don’t change your name cross-dress, talk to horses, and demand perfection) be the Mulan at the end. The Mulan who sees that perfect is imperfect and you with all our flaws are good enough, because at the end “The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rarest and beautiful of them all.”

What do you guys think? Does Mulan suffer from atelophobia?

Let me know what you guys think and I welcome ideas of which character I should diagnose next!

Happy New Year and:


“Get off the roof, get off the roof, get off the roof!”


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